Though it’s said, “The only constant is change,” I am now in the midst of change more significant than what I experience everyday. Is this good change? I think all change has the potential to unveil new directions, opportunities and positive growth. In this moment of the change, though, I’m finding so much more. Right now, for me, there is sadness, grief, allowing, solitude, connection, friends and support.
Many of you reading know Cathy and I have been working together for a long time. It’s been a wonderful 8 years. We met in 2008, and in 2009 she joined me at Challenge U. Cathy possesses a set of skills as a teacher and as a horse listener unlike anyone I have ever met. I have been blessed to share a common vision with her and have learned so much as a result of her knowledge and experience.
Last week Cathy left for a new position. It’s a really great one and is perfect for her skill sets. I am very happy for her and the new path she has chosen for her life. I am excited for all the people she will be teaching and the horses she will be understanding.
However, I was not prepared for but in hindsight, not surprised by, the emotional roller coaster I have been on over the last several days. I’m experiencing the change in the horse herd, the dogs being separated, and the emptiness in the house. At times, it’s been overwhelming. And also, appropriate and necessary. I recognize that allowing myself to experience my experiences – being sad, questioning, having uncertainty – is inviting me into vulnerability, sharing and faith. I get to practice what I coach!
Vulnerability is truly the greatest agent for change in my life. I am present. One day at a time is the best I can do and is actually the best for me. I’m working on having faith that what wants to happen already is. There is no place to arrive to. All is as it should be in this moment.
So this change…good? Maybe neither good nor bad, right nor wrong. But it is definitely an experience in life to which I get to choose how I respond. And I choose to see the opportunity of increasing my faith, of practicing being present and of reaching out to my many wonderful friends, peers and partners to share what is in my heart. I have a blank canvas to create this next part of my journey, to do my work such that this next part of the journey will unfold from my head, heart and gut equally. It will be from my values, my truth and faith that I am here for a reason. And most importantly, seeking a congruence as the foundation of healthy, trusting relationships.
Cathy, as I say goodbye to you and this chapter we created together, I thank you for sharing such a wonderful part of my life. Thank you for helping me open the door to this amazing work with the horses and giving me such a solid foundation from which to jump! Now let’s giddy up!!!